If you did not know, Demi Lovato has a new Youtube documentary about her life. It is seriously inspirational. She has turned her struggles into wonderful music. Not only has she made wonderful music but she has made mental illness, addiction and eating disorders human. When it comes to our deepest darkest struggles, we always feel like we are alone, yet she exposed her darkest struggles for the world to see, giving everyone a celebrity to identify with. Her story has given people a light to look at, letting them know they are not alone.
It takes incredible courage to be a celebrity and share so much information about yourself that isn’t always pretty. Demi is an inspiration. Her story shows people that even celebrities face the struggles we do. Her story shows that good can come from bad situations, I mean have you heard her new album!
Not only has she inspired and encouraged many others struggle with mental illness or eating disorders or addiction, but she encouraged and inspired me. I have struggled with PMDD since I was 14. PMDD is a PMSing disorder. Pretty much I’m extra crazy around that time of month. I have been on medicine for it for 6 years now and I have been lucky to find medicine that has worked for me, yet for some time I didn’t not like the fact I was on medication. I felt like I was crazy. But I am not. Being on medicine does not mean I am crazy. Medication has actually helped me feel normal and in control of my emotions.
Recently I had to adjust my medicine, just because over time that sometimes has to happen and I got to feel what it feels like to not have control of my emotions. It was awful. I didn’t understand what was going on or why I acted certain ways. It was extremely hard and I didn’t want to admit I had very little control of what I felt.
I wanted to share my story because I know what it feels like to be ashamed of something you cannot control. It doesn’t make you weak or crazy. It makes you human. Plenty of times I have felt out of control and I had to reach out for help. It is okay to reach out for help. Trust me you are not alone. There are plenty of people who get help and it actually benefits them. Being on medication helped me, but I have also been to several councilors throughout the years. Being able to talk to someone who is trained to help has been incredibly beneficial.
It may not be easy, but it is worth it to feel in control of your emotions. Thank you guys for reading part of my story, of course my story is filled with 20 years and I cannot spill it all out to you here. I just want you to know that you are not alone in any of your struggles, especially mental illness.
My name is Mikala. I am here trying to figure out this thing called life.
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